Here I Go Again (On My Own)

Quick question; if you received a message (on facebook) on Tuesday that said "It's my birthday next week-are you coming out on Friday for a drink?" or something like that-when would you turn up? The Friday that was 3 days away or the Friday after?

The correct answer is the Friday that is 3 days away. The logical answer is the next Friday.

Anyway, the above explains why I was a few hours late in going to someones birthday party last night. Knowing I was going out tonight I was kinda relieved to have a quiet one last night until I got a text about 9:30 asking why I wasn't out! And everyone had a jolly good laugh (both at and with me) when I explained why I was late!

Still a good night was had by all and I met some new people who seemed pretty cool. Also saw another ex of mine who I haven't seen for about 5 years-she was a rebound gf and can only be described as a mistake. Didn't speak to her last night at all-not deliberately there just never seemed to be a suitable opportunity.

Perhaps surprisingly I have not heard from CE at all. Suspect she may be out tonight but definitely (hopefully?) not on the pub crawl that is the birthday party I'm attending. The problem with a town with one club is that if you go there you are likely to run into the same people should they be there. As always, drink is the answer......

Haircut is over and done with and I now looked "groomed" according to several witnesses. Think "current-day Desmond from Lost" and you are probably not too far away. I look about 5 years younger!

Had a proper disagreement with my mum at work today; this is the first time it's ever properly happened. The reason being today she made a decision which I know will come back and cause more trouble than it's worth. It's happened before about several things that I've warned her about and this is no exception. Even the other boss venomously tried to dissuade my mum but it didn't happen. All I hope is that it's cost us too much time and money-lost enough of both last year thankyouverymuch.

And that's about all the report today really...off to do some recording now.

I'm booked in for a hair cut tomorrow at 9:30am. Am slightly nervous although it looked good last time I had it done!

Today I think I may have met the female equivalent of myself. Potential tenant for the next academic year called SF; whilst walking and chatting to one house she made a comment regarding the temperature in our office and asked if we wore bikini's in summer. Then was immediately embarrassed. This is the female equivalent of the stupid kind of things I say when talking to ladies I find attractive!

And the girls in the office didn't believe me when I told them about it! Even when I said the dumb thing that is todays title!

Oh-my watch turned up in the post first thing this morning. Very impressed!

Have just written a great song entitled "Out Of Control"! I'm definitely in a songwriting phase at the moment, and, unlike some phases of the past, this seems to be yielding more consistently good songs! Certainly I'll play them all for RM and see what he thinks.

Other good news is that I am trying out as singer for an indie covers band next week which is exciting and terrifying in equal measures.

CE (yes I learned her surname) found me on the facebook. I accepted. I think I may come to regret this decision but I'm not renowned for ever doing the right thing so this doesn't surprise me. In fact, the aforementioned "Out Of Control" is entirely about me being out of control and destroying things-usually unnecessarily! Not always mind you.

Anyway, my favourite line in the song is "give me everything and let me tear it apart"; which is how I feel sometimes-I'm incredibly lucky in certain respects and often/sometimes I simply push the results of that luck away and I don't always know why. Sometimes I listen to my instincts; in fact they have very rarely let me down-it's usually fate that does that!

I don't have any answers today. I don't even know the right questions to ask.

P.S. The random girl who ended up with my watch texted me today to ask if I wanted it back! I don't deserve that kind of karma right now! But I am very grateful!

I'm not sure how we manage it but CA and I have some awesome but random nights out. Friday was relatively uneventful apart from me telling Zana that my new years resolution was to only talk to her when she was drunk too!

Then yesterday we went to York; started drinking at 4pm. Managed to join a 50th birthday party for a while. Learned there are 365 pubs in the greater York area and vowed to go to them all (before catching the train back at 9:10!).

Failed! But we did go to 9 bars which was pretty good going. Stuck to beer or rum n coke apart from having a French Martini in Evil Eye. Which was really nice to be honest!

Anyway, got the last train back tot own then hit the town. Managed to find a squaddie, his sister, his "cousin" and their two friends. Took them out on a tour of the town, in return they got us lots of booze and Rob (the squaddie) decided he was going to help me pull by giving me confidence! Which, to be fair, he was pretty good at. As was his "cousin". I put "cousin" because they would get off with each other later and in fact go home together-sadly taking my $3 Vietnamese Casio digital watch with her.

Actually I told them it wasn't my confidence that needed improving (which was blatantly a lie!) but a decision I'd made not to let anyone get close.

Anyway, CA and I continued to get incredibly drunk. Ran into an old friend, LG, who was really pleased to see me! I rarely see her nowadays but whenever I do she's usually in a bad, or non-communicative mood. But last night she was what I'd call normal for her which was good. I take things far too personally so I'd always thought I'd offended her in some way but I guess not! Anyway; she proudly claimed to be "sober by choice" to which I laughed and said I was "drunk by choice! Oh how the tables have turned!".

Also saw LM again. I used to seeing her about once a year too but have now seen her twice this month. I used to be stored in her phone as "MyFirstName Fantastic!". But she'd deleted me. I too had deleted her though so I told her to ESP me next time she's out. Foolish! But then I'm assuming she is still with her husband/bf (can't remember if she's married or not!).

Anyway; I had the sex last night. First time this year and it was with a girl called C.....actually I don't even know her surname! She is a massive Bon Jovi fan (as I am!) and she actually didn't believe me until I listed the shows I'd been to; played some of their songs on guitar and played her some demos and rarities she hadn't heard before. Apparently many men claim to be Bon Jovi fans when chatting her up.

She's actually just left. Unfortunately I have today found out that she is a bit dim. Nice but I fear I may have just added another one night stand to my list. Relationship sex stills outweighs ONS but this had tipped the balance a bit...she is number 13 too which isn't a good sign!

Warning-there may be mild Lost spoilers here.....

.....so having just watched the first two episodes of Season 5 of Lost one thing is clear; more questions are coming! And we're going down the time travel route this season. There goes my purgatory theory anyway.

I like Lost; I almost walked away after the poor season 3; when the first flash-forward occurred right at the end I figured "hey-they get off the island! I can stop watching now" but season 4 definitely picked up and I am very glad the is a definite end coming at the end of season 6. The thought of it dragging on forever scared me and I would have walked.

My car somehow passed its MOT today which means I can return the rental car

Last night I wrote a cool song called "Question Everything". My idea for the demo is that it starts really simple, i.e. just the four notes that make up the chord sequence (G, D, Am, C) and it builds and builds and builds; I have about 15 verses and I plan to try and add a layer to every verse. Not sure how it'll sound in the end but it'll be interesting to try.

So it seems CM is slowly working her way through my circle of friends; classy! She has definitely slept with AB, CA and SF since I sent her packing and she was spotted on friday night with some "peripheral" friends of mine. AB found out that she stopped counting how many guys she'd slept with after 50 and that this was during her teens; she's 34 now!

I am now very glad that our relationship wasn't sexual! I told CA that if he hadn't been careful he might want to get a little test done at a certain clinic.

Interestingly ST did exactly the same thing after we broke up; again the decision to end it was mine. In fact, I'm been dump-or much more than I have been dump-ee; a ratio of 2:1 (with 3 honorable mentions for the joint decision ones, i.e. when they were leaving the country!). What one makes of this fact I have no idea.

Heard the new U2 single "Get On Your Boots" this morning. The first version I heard sounded dreadful! It has been recorded in a very low bitrate from a streamed Irish radio station and was terrible quality! I then found out you can listen to a higher quality version on the U2 website and now I really like the song and can't wait for the album (No Line On The Horizon; out 2nd March)! It sounds not unlike previous singles Elevation and Vertigo tbh-definitely a good thing.

Also, I have written a new song entitled "MI" which is shaping up nicely as another rocker. Although it is another comedy song-before last year I think I had only written one comedy song (called "The Queen Of Friday Night") but I seem to be churning them out at the moment. Probably because I pretty happy and content really and don't have much to complain about (i.e usually whomever I'm dating!)....anyway this new song is about my relationship with LT-for some reason she makes me say completely inappropriate things!

Actually it's because I find her stunningly attractive and my stupid brain feels the need to fill gaps/silence with words. And when I'm drunk sometimes they can be slightly rude or suggestive to say the least. But I don't do this with *anyone* else! Even other women I find attractive! I don't know what it is about her.....

Had a great night out in M last night, CA came with as usual but AW also joined in for a change. Granted the "cocktail" party was a little bit of letdown as I was the only one who really made an effort! But we all had a good laugh anyway before heading out to a club which was fantastic.

Did get my ear chewed off by one tenant though-not because of his house but his housemates! May have to sort it out tomorrow.

Also managed to get a girl to stroke my foot. I promise that this is not some weird fetish of mine; she'd stood on my foot and stroked my arm to apologise-at which point I said that my arm was fine and it was my foot she'd stood on! So she stroked my foot!

"If I had a six foot penis I'd be famous..........and you'd be next door!" = my favourite quote from last night.

Low-profiled it-did go out but promised myself not to go to the club; almost broke my promise but kept it in the end.

I did however get chatted up from the soon-to-be-ex wife of a friend! Granted he's not a close friend but it was still slightly odd. For me anyway-she didn't seem to care.....but then I have a feeling/suspicious that her soon-to-be-ex husband/my friend is seeing, or soon will be seeing, an ex of mine so maybe it all balances out!

I had a good talk to her anyway and found out some of her side of the story, as previously I'd only heard my friends' side. They both agree that it was her decision to get divorced certainly-he's much much more bitter that she is! She found it hilarious when I told her that they were the first people I knew to get divorced and thus she was the benchmark. In fact-her number (don't ask) is stored in my phone as "Benchmark".

Unfortunately I have literally just remembered the conversation we had about vibrators- she has 5 apparently which I queried! They were listed and that's about all I remember at the moment. I fear more may come back to me later.....

Saw VM again today and she was back to normal which was good. Sometimes I take things too personally tbh and this was a good example of that.

My mum made me feeling incredibly guilty about ST last night; so I made a concerted effort to be nice and chatty on the way to work. And I think it worked generally-she seemed to be in a better mood than normal certainly. Havign said that I had another "feet not touching the ground" day so wasn't always in and around the office.

Went to lunch with MM; who is the same as always. Though she did get back together with her on/off boyfriend "Chicken". She claims to be heartless (and in fact enjoys it when I call her this) but I've warned her that one day someone will break her heart and she'll understand the rest of us.

Am going out tonight but taking it easy as we';re going "all in" tomorrow.....

I need a weekend! Another day where my feet haven't touched the ground.

Tonight I got locked in my own toilet; luckily I didn't panic but it did make me think about living alone and the obvious downfalls, i.e. even if I did have my phone in there with me (I didn't) - who would I call when my front door is also locked with the key in the back of the door. Fortuitously after about 3 minutes of lock wangling I freed it.

I have a hire car for the week as my regular car failed to pass it's MOT yesterday and became illegal at midnight. I quite like the hire car although it is quite big; I described it as looking like the millennium falcon and driving like a snake-i.e. I can control the head but have no idea what the rest of the car is doing. Still it's nippy!

One weird thing that happened today was myself and MA having a conversation about toys n things from our pasts. She asked if I remember G Shocks. I didn't. Then this evening another (completely unrelated) friend texted to ask if I wanted his fake G Shock he had purchased believing it to be an original. MA and the other friend definitely do not know each other, nor even of each other so it was completely co-incidental!

Speaking of MA-her and her boyfriend, JH, are rubbish. All they do is argue. As do ST and VD who have apparently had another big fight. Sometimes being single seems like the best thing in the world-I'm still healing from JW although I am also still reeling that TH doesn't live closer! Haven't sorted anything out with her but have had a good textarama all week with her....

Last night I watched "This Film Has Not Yet Been Rated" and it was awesome-one of the best documentaries I have ever seen. Not that I've seen many but still-I really enjoyed it and recommend it to anyone interested in how the MPAA operate their ratings policies/business in America. Or just interested in films in general to be honest...

....anyway one line in the film "nobody gets to come", referring to sex scenes in films, inspired a song from me titled "Nobody Gets To Come". See what I did there?!?!?! The song is completely about the MPAA but it could be about a great party that no-one gets to come to. I love ambiguous lyrics!

AW found his missing house key. And his father did have his spare! So that ended well at least. Didn't see the "fake wife" (MM) today-hopefully tomorrow. Not that the other wife (TH) constitutes a real one either!

I got a really nice text from TH today-allow me to quote the best bits "How's the songwriting going. Ur really amazing! I love the stuff u played me the other night and your voice is rather yum!". Bless her! It's her birthday on sunday and I would love to go down (wayhey!) and see her-but I'm committed to a party on Saturday night already which I am really looking forward to.

I'm bemused and slightly (but humorously) miffed at the situations I am able to get myself into.

AW has locked himself out of his flat; his Dad is claiming that he doesn't have the spare key-I definitely don't have it and MW doesn't either. We're presuming his Dad has forgotten that he has it! Will ring him shortly and see how he's getting on.

MM (the other wife!) is back from her Xmas holiday at 10pm and is supposed to be coming in to see me at work tomorrow lunchtime. She will have a jolly good laugh at all my Christmas antics!

MA and SL had a jolly good laugh at my "why do they all leave?" rant at work today when I told them about TH. Speaking of whom-she is proving to be just as nice and fantastic as friday night. Argh!

I seem to recall that in the olden days of yore people never traveled more than 20 miles from their houses! If that was still the case I'd be happily married with LS and would have just taken TH on a mistress.....hmmm that came out wrong! But my rant still stands!

I sent LT a drunken text on saturday night containing a similar rant-her reply was "at least this one is in the country". Fair play to her.

Had a brief song writing session with RM last night which yielding some good basics which we will be working on Wednesday night, including "If I Fell For You (Would You Catch Me)", "I'm In Love With Somebody" and "Save My Conscience". Plus we worked on "Can't Let Go" a bit too. Good stuff....

Chilled out most of yesterday daytime; until EM's party started around 5pm. Beer beer beer beer beer. We squeezed 11 people into AW's small flat which was cosy to say the least-still it gave my neighbours a break which I think they deserved.

Afterwards SJ and I went to the club, with her acting as my "wing woman". Regretfully TH (from friday night) didn't come out as she actually never went to bed on friday night; I can't remember exactly what time I eventually walked her home at but it was very early. Or late depending how you look at it-probably in the 7am region anyway. She then spent the day shopping with her mother and then crashed. Quite understandably but it would have been great to see her again. She leaves today

Still we did exchange a seres of really nice text messages.

And that's about it really. EM enjoyed his party and got suitably drunk as usual. We all played Guitar Hero III and a driving game I forget the name of on Xbox at the party which was surprisingly entertaining; not the game itself which is obviously fun but the fact it worked as a party game.

Today I plan to write two new songs in their entirety, with middle eights and everything. But first I'm going for a run.....

Sigh. Great big sigh. I met a really really great girl last night called TH with whom I apparently went to school. In fact, her name is familiar but, after lengthy discussions, we established that there is a good chance no words were passed between us at school-despite having several close mutual friends. We also have 27 mutual friends on the ubiquitous facebook which we discovered to my amazement in the club on her phone! Technology is brilliant!

Anyway, I sigh because she is going to Leighton Buzzard (where she lives) tomorrow. Admittedly, based on my track record, that is actually pretty close after the girls who moved to Poland, Australia and China respectively but it's still pretty annoying! Still I did propose (on one knee and everything!) although we were joking at the time that my surname was "Crap" due to her drunken predictive text. So therefore I did ask her to become Mrs Crap.

Anyway, she dug me as much as I dug her! And she does not look 30 at all. In fact, I only believe her because her story checks out! Anyway, I've invited to EM's birthday party tonight but I don't know if she'll come.

Incidentally, after the proposal, she came to my house. I made her tea, played her some songs and introduced everything as "ours", i.e "this is our kitchen, our living room, our stairs" etc! Much hilarity.

Also had a good chat with one of the barmaids from my local pub whom I have christened LJ (in real life) as that is her initials.

VM was not in her usual good mood when I went round to see her yesterday! Normally we have a little chat n a flirt but yesterday she was not in a friendly conversational mood at all! I'm almost 100% sure it's nothing I've done but it was odd. Hope she's ok.

I think I've finally got back into the swing of work, though I'm concerned how many things I've forgotten! Like where certain houses are for example. Still it's returning slowly although it does feel like I've done a full weeks' work already and I still have the busy friday to get through yet.

MW was made redundant today. Granted he hated his job and hopefully this will give him a proper kick up the bottom into getting a job he likes. Or doesn't hate at least. Still, as he put it, "it put bread on the table" and he does have a fiancée and child to support.

MW is the second of my friend to lose their job recently. DG lost his a few weeks before Christmas and is also on the job market. In fact, DG wishes to move into my spare room as soon as he has the money coming in. For now he is back at his parents.

And I have finally (almost) got a proper double bed and mattress in the spare room. I say "almost" because I still need to get the mattress here plus a handful of bits n pieces to hold the bed together. Once it's completed it will be much better than the dirty old single mattress lying on the floor I have now......although more than one person has taken advantage of it recently......

Ok, since someone asked specifically here is a breakdown of the tracks that comprised 2008's CD with a little description. I'll see if I can upload them somewhere if anyone wants to hear them....?

1. "Love Me Like There's No Tomorrow"
Fun little rocker. One of only two songs I've ever re-recorded as I wasn't too happy with the 2006 version and I love the song itself. JW described it as "the best song I'd written". Completely and utterly fictional lyrics apart from one line ("You know I'm not the only one who wants something from you") which was about LS. My attempt to write a TJ song-even to the extend of stealing "his" chords!

2. "We Can Fly"
Another upbeat number about the feeling of being in love and being able to achieve anything. The tempo was inspired by a Jesse Malin song which I can't even remember the title of now. Always liked the line "everyone's a genius in their own hemisphere" which, taken literally, is obviously nonsense. But poetically I really like it.

3. "Under Your Spell"
Early this year I was listening to Neil Diamond a lot, and this was my attempt to write a Neil Diamond-esque song. I'm not sure I achieved that 100% (and in truth I'm not really particularly happy with the demo) but I like the song itself. The live version I played on Boxing day sounded better I think!

4. "Hey You"
Fun song about a guy who meets a girl in a pub and cheers her up! Starts "Hey you", then it's "hey me" then "Hey us!".

5. "Overwhelming Me"
A song that came to me in a dream, almost in it's entirety! Woke up, ran downstairs, grabbed a guitar and a tape recorder and just sang as much as I could remember. Full demo version sounds good and it was the first song I recorded with RM.

6. "You're On My Mind"
Incredibly harsh ballad about being with one person (JW) and loving another (LS). Love the song but hope JW never hears it!

7. "What The Hell"
Slow rocky number about an argument between two people. Again about JW and I.

8. "What Do You Do With Your Ghosts?"
Title stolen from a post on a forum somewhere. Immediately made me think of Ryan Adams and so I tried to write a Ryan-esque song. Again I think I failed in that respect but really like the song itself. Demo is ok. Definitely one to re-record with RM I think....

9. "Love Is My Middle Name"
As described in an old post; a fun jokey song-written in 20 minutes; the verses were mine and the chorus was RM's. Good demo recording but could use some drums maybe. Still a hell of a lot of fun.....

10. "Better Off Dead"
Cool rocky number (again!). Used the same harsh verse lyrics from "You're On My Mind" with a new equally harsh chorus ("Let me spell it out for you-I don't really love you. The way things are I'd be better off dead"). Love it!

11. "I Dreamt I Told A Joke (And The Whole World Laughed)"
Another fun jokey number. Slowish acoustic verses describing potential jokes (and waking from a dream about Madonna) and a fast rocky chorus. The more I listen to it the more I like it! Imagined it as a Foo Fighters rip-off but think it works better this way. The chorus and first verse came to me whilst on a safari tour in Thailand.

I'm quite pleased as when I started recording these CDs I erred towards ballads a lot-probably because they were easier to sing. But every year the rock quotient has increased and "Better Off Dead" features the best rock singing I've done to date. I think the stint fronting a rock band every week helped with my confidence and ability and I really can't wait to do it again! Soon hopefully.....

Today I compiled an annual CD of songs I've recorded in the past year. I'm pleased to report that, generally, each year is better than the one that precedes it! Sometimes I'm slightly less prolific in all honesty-in fact, in 2004 and 2005 I had too many songs recorded to fit onto 1 CD. This years CDs comprises of 12 tracks but the quality is significantly higher methinks. And 2009 has started well....so well that RM is making band noises, i.e. lets get a band together and get some gigs. I'm all for that!

I'm going to see VM tomorrow! Very excited! Despite my promise! Too many exclamation marks!

Have also decided to hold my friends birthday party at AW's house instead of mine this weekend. His house is much smaller but there won't be many people there anyway and my neighbours definitely need a break from the constant noise the constant partying Christmas brought with it.....

Balls.....I accidentally deleted an entire post when I meant to delete just the comment!

Didn't do much on sunday other than taking MG to the airport for her flight to Poland. Am pleased to report that I made a very good impression even though the only new words she learned during her two weeks in England were booze, mistress and hangover. I am definitely responsible for two of those, possibly all three. I'm more proud than I should be really.

Was weird being back at work again today but good to see SL and MA who both, independently, had a good holiday. SL was optimistically expecting ST to have changed. She hadn't. I'm not surprised.

I've been listening back to "I Dreamt I Told A Joke...." and I'm really pleased with it. When it originally came to me (in a Safari park in Thailand bizarrely) it sounds kinda Foo Fighters-esque; our recording is not at all that way but is maybe better for it in all honesty. Not that recording a Foo Fighters-esque song would be a bad thing you understand! I've also written some more lyrics for "Can't Let Go" which is shaping up quite nicely.

I'm nearing the end of Season 2 of American Dad. It's good, not Family Guy good but enjoyable all the same. Need some new TV recommendations now....

And finally; I sent a parcel to Barbados today. TJ's manager is out there smoozing with industry bigwigs and he forgot to take any copies of the showreel I put together for TJ. So we had to ship a few over to him......

Had another day recording with RM yesterday. We recorded another of my songs entitled "I Dreamt I Told A Joke (And The Whole World Laughed)" as well as spontaneously half writing a completely new song which is called "Can't Let Go" at the moment though that is likely/possibly going to change...

Then went out again last night, and had another post-club party! Got woken up this morning by the neighbours hammering on the door to complain-not specifically about the noise of the party but the noise of people stood outside smoking/talking. I apologised but I don't really know how to stop this for future parties! I'll think of something.

I have decided to try and convert my garage into a mini-studio. Once all the remnants of the old business have been removed obviously. I'm going to look into the costs of soundproofing etc right now in fact.......

Went out for a meal with my parents and some of their friends last night which was nice; I really enjoyed my meal but my Mum was "disappointed" with hers and my Dad's was "ok"!

When it comes to food I'm pretty easily pleased though to be honest. I had a nice minty pea and spring onion soup for starters, followed by Thai Fishcakes with noodles and sweet chili sauce which were delicious.

Then I went out with SJS, DG, TS and RD; it was a pretty quiet night and we had a laugh although I don't think anyone had fully recovered from NYE!

Had an interesting talk with SF in the club, re: the girl who is an ex to both of us.

Told DG about my theory from yesterday and being an island etc (oh the irony!). He told me if I "gave up" he'd kick me in the balls.

"Everything to everybody and nothing to no one"

Perfect; that sums up exactly how I intend to be this year! I have either a) hurt or;
b) been hurt by
soooo many people that I can't bear the thought of either ever again, especially a) as I feel guilty about splitting up with JW (6 months ago) and even ST still (4 years ago!). I refuse to put anyone else through the pain and it will take a miracle, a la LS, to change my mind.

I'm also definitely going to include the phrase in a song somewhere soon. Speaking of which I have now finished my third book of songs and the fourth is sat waiting to be filled! The final song of Book #3 was entitled 'What Do You Do With Your Ghosts' and I am quite proud of it....

Have had a little gap from Xmas eve filled in via a photo/chat with AT on facebook. I met one of her friends (called Laura) who thought I was "a bit odd"! I like to think I was "a bit drunk" rather than odd but who cares?!?!?! Maybe "everybody" is reaching a bit far after all.....!

1st January 2009 and I woke up in a bed with 2 Polish girls. And they were sisters no less. I can think of worse ways of starting the year....

Anyway-I threw an awesome party! Started at 3pm and ending just before 6am! In true "General on the battlefield" I was the first one there (obviously really a sit was at my house!) and I vowed to stay awake and alive until the last person left-which I did. I am particularly pleased with myself as I woke up at 7am on New years Eve! I'm knackered now though....

I *think* 30 people, including myself, attended. AG managed to flake out at 11pm though she had started at 3pm with me and MG. By 9pm I have a good houseful-though some of the 30 turned up after midnight which was funny! I made them promise to come before 12 next year.

-Had a disgusting green cocktail mixed which was so bad I decided to use it as an entrance fee-everyone had to drink one shot to get in! I made loads of loads of White Russians (my favourite cocktail-thanx The big Lewbowski!) and drank them too! MW and MA also knocked up some good cocktails, and a few other people made some up on the spot with varying results.
-AW broke my fantastic backwards clock! It had always pissed him off when he lived with me and I think he'd finally had enough of it. Last time he got in a funny mood like that it was because he'd not had sex for a while! Anyway he promised ot pay for a replacement; if it had been a present from LS as opposed to JW I would have been really annoyed.
-Drunkenly convinced MG that English pizza's were really small and gasped appropriately when she told about the 12/14/18 inch pizzas they have over in Poland. Confessed all today!
-Had a good old fashion jam with RM and MB including a blues song about "sending my woman to the car wash-as she was too dirty for me" which was cool.
-Tested RD's dress with a shot of water when she claimed it was water-proof. It wasn't.
-Tried and tried and tried to get MB involved but he is so depressing that no-one can talk to him for long. The boy needs confidence and I plan to try and help him with that this year. He really is like Marvin The Paranoid Android. But he did admit that this was the best NYE he'd had which was a start! But he still left a tad depressed and there was nothing I could do.

But it was an ace party and everyone else had a great time. My house was a bit of a tip this morning but I'm getting used to it now and know how to tidy up pretty efficiently. Plus I had the two Polish girls to help-one of whom is a cleaner anyway!

So New years resolutions.
1) To drink less. Not get absolutely smashed so that there are gaps. Granted Christmas Eve was special circumstances but still....
2) Go running more often.
3) Push the music skills I have and get as good as I possible can; singing, guitar playing and songwriting principally but piano/drums would also good good.
4) Get more gigs-either band or solo
5) Learn a foreign language. Or learn more of one of the ones I can speak bits of.
6) JW said I was "an island" emotionally, i.e. I rarely let anyone know what I'm thinking or how I'm really feeling. I told her there were 2 and a half exceptions, MW, EM and LT (when I'm drunk). TBH, after this year I think I'm taking 2 and a half down to 0; it's been a painful year and I don't think I can cope with it ever again. So if no-one is allowed in then no-one (me or the other person) can get hurt.

That should do for now!