Here I Go Again (On My Own)

...and I'm restless! House is tidy (probably foolishly as I'm sure it'll be doing it again tomorrow!), booze is purchased and chilling (where appropriate), food is organised-just need to find some party music (which could be tricky!).

Have been considering the past year in the last few days. I seem to recall at the start of the year that I promised myself I would not be dating JW be the end of it. Mission accomplished!

In fact, I discovered yesterday that I split up with two girlfriends on the same day of the year (7th June) albeit 3 years apart-JW this year and SR in 05! Very strange-possibly something to do with the fact that it's about a month before my birthday but probably not. JW was definitely a case of me dumping her and SR was fairly 50/50 so it seems to be a big co-incidence.

Nothing is going to happen with LS. Had a upsetting conversation with her on the phone yesterday-but am not surprised tbh. Yes-as predicted JW has cost me any chance of a relationship sadly. The really annoying part is that JW would have no qualms whatsoever were the situation reversed; I think that's why I like LS so much!

So hopefully a New year-new opportunities and all that malarkey. I don't necessarily believe that but have to for my sanity! I'm thinking about my New Years resolutions now, one of which is definitely to drink less! Have a couple of other ideas which I'll save for now....

All that remains is to hope anyone reading has a good night tonight tonight and I'll be back with any gossip/info/random thoughts in the new year!

Bye bye 2008.......

....why can you change your date of birth so easily? I can accept that maybe someone could make a mistake when they were first entering it, however being able to change it willy-nilly (a woefully underused phrase) seems strange to me!

What possible reason is there for it? Answers on a postcard please...

I feel incredibly hungover today. Which is quite weird as I didn't drink anything last night! I think I might be coming down with something but will hopefully be ok for NYE.

Did go out last night, with JW and HB, but refrained from drinking completely. It probably helped that the town was completely dead! Anyway, throughout the course of the evening (which was fun!) they decided that I would be great as the owner/runner of a bar. This was then elaborated into a travelling/mobile bar near a beach somewhere. And they're right tbh-I would be good at that.

They also decided I'd look good in a dress though so I'm not sure about all their ideas....

Have just shaved off my beard! I can't actually remember how many days growth it was (maybe 2 weeks worth) but I look about 5 years younger now!

Sometimes Earl manages to say the right things! Or as good as he possibly can do anyway! Last nights' compliment was the aforementioned "you're the sun to my solar panel" which personally I actually think is very nice!

Speaking of nice; JW is being extremely nice to me now we've made up. It's a bit worrying tbh.

Parts of Christmas Eve has been explained to me. There are a lot of gaps still although I know for a fact I am a very happy drunk so am quite safe in the knowledge that I won't have offended or upset anyone. I ran into Anne again last night-it was her birthday so I bought her a drink. Had a god long chat/flirt and then managed to lose her somewhere! Very poor! Found her on facebook today though so have added her a s a friend. Pretty sure I invited her to my NYE party.

Oh, and I was also speaking to someone who is definitely coming. She asked me how many people were coming and I mumbled an answer (as I have no idea really). She said we needed as many as possible so I literally starting stopping complete strangers as they were walking by and asking them what they were doing for New year! If they had no plans I invited them! This still makes me laugh but it's perhaps that she stopped me after about 10 people had been accosted by me!

Apparently I own the town I live in. And the planet we're on! Yes that's how big my ego was after my fantastic gig last night! I am a drunken genius!

Well I'm flying anyway. Made my peace with JW. Flirted shamelessly with LT. Sang with LS. Received text messages from all three of them this morning - I should point out that these three are the very best of friends.

The message from LT regarded the "ultimatum" she gave me on Christmas Eve (see previous post). Firstly my recollection of this may be skewed. Secondly apparently I gave her a response to this "alleged ultimatum" (her words) which she won't tell me until the new year! Argh! She definitely did say she would destroy me though - I checked.

LS is the one for me unquestionably. She is the principal reason I made peace with JW. She leaves at 5pm today sadly.

Post-pub (when they had all left) I pulled an 18 year old girl called Lou-in fact it was her 18th birthday no less. I also foolishly spoke to the incredibly hot Zana who usually works in the club but had a night off. She has no idea how hot she is (I told her so!) and I told her I owned the planet! She was bemused!

Actually LT and LS both said I should "get back on the horse". I said no. I manned up to JW which I actually think really impressed her. Too little too late but good for my ego anyway. In fact I told her to "shut the **** up and listen to me" to her immense surprise! but she did!

I'm writing this down because it's important to me, awesome and necessary! Sorry if you're reading and it sounds like waffle!

Setlist for my show ran something like this:
I'm A Believer
Firecracker
(Don't Forget) To Save Yourself
Under Your Spell
Only You (with LS)
If I Only Had The Words ~ Livin' On A Prayer
Out Of Time
Love Me Like There's No Tomorrow ~ Won't Get Fooled Again ~ Young Gods
Overwhelming Me
Unwind ~ Sit Down ~ Someday I'll Be Saturday Night ~ (I'm Gonna Be) 500 Miles
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I Don't Wanna Go Home
My Girlfriends Dead

18 songs in 45 minutes! Some kind of a record I reckon. Had some complete strangers come and compliment me in the club afterwards who had been at the gig. And lots of my friends were there too.

Merry Christmas y'all in internet land!

I have again excelled myself with my stupid drunken talking to attractive women. Last night (after an ale or two obviously) I compared the women of my dreams to a can of baked beans. Yes you read that right. I tend to use analogies a lot and this was a classic even by my standards. I explained how she was like my favourite brand of beans and that I'd tried some others and they just didn't compare!

The other thing I have to write down (as I remember them-which is a key factor here) is LT saying two very interesting things to me:
1) "It's me or LS tonight"
2) "I'd destroy you!"

Other than that-JW conspicuously avoided me all night. I almost started a fight with a complete stranger because I was happy (don't ask-he thought I was laughing at him) and I saw loads of people who I rarely see which was good fun. I unsuccessfully tried to chat up a girl named Anne ("that's a good mixture of vowels and constants" said Earl!) and drank an awful lot of alcohol. Spent about £100 I think.

Now the real preparation for my gig tomorrow starts....

Just done my Christmas shopping. or most of it anyway-still don't know exactly what to get my Dad but I figure I'll work it out tomorrow. By asking him!

Am working my way slowing through all the tour footage; have had lots of messages form various people who had wanted to meet me on the tour and were disappointed because they didn't get to! Very strange...!

I'm almost ready for my gig on Boxing Day having completely re-jigged my former setlist. Just been and bought new sets of strings (and got a free t-shirt in the process-bonus!).

Merry Christmas

I'm sooo tired. Went "all-in" on Friday night, pub, club then post-club party at my house which was weirdly attended by one of my best friends ex-gf AND his current GF. But not my friend himself! Got RM incredibly drunk, so drunk he was sick in the morning. Ah well. We all had an awesome night anyway, in fact-I was id'ed. By a girl who didn't believe that I was 30! So I had to show her my passport!

Tour has finished now; final night was in the Glasgow last night with another great aftershow party in a local rock club. 'twas an awesome tour and I'm sad it's over but at least it will let me do my Xmas shopping now-as well as preparing for my gig on Boxing Day.

What else? That's about it for now I guess.....

Having just watched episode 13 of Heroes I can honestly say enough is enough and I shan't be watching it anymore. I loved the first season. Was disappointed by the second and don't know what to think about the third-the characters are all over the place (ooh Sylar is good, oh he's bad, no he's good again. But he's bad!-I wish the writers would make their mind up; all this double/triple/quadruple crossings over don't make me want to watch-they've made me give up).

So RIP Heroes for me. And officially RIP Dirty Sexy Money which is a real shame as it's probably my favourite US TV show atm; at least up there with How I Met Your Mother and The Big Bang Theory.

So...onwards and upward. I'm just getting into The Wire which is proving to be very good so far-almost Six Feet Under good in fact. BTW, Six Feet Under is, along with Arrested Development, the greatest US TV show ever.

Enough rambling...I'm going to London now.....

Got my first Christmas card today from EA. With the exceptions of my parents I'm not actually expecting any others either tbh. My friends and I have a deal whereby we all know we want each other to have a good Christmas and have decided we don't actually need to send a card to explain this! Saves time and money certainly!

Tour is going ok so far. Average night in S on monday and a great night in C last night! Have got some good footage. Also TJ played some new tracks at his house on Monday-one of which ('Better Off Dead') was fantastic!

Still I am a bit sad generally. I'm absolutely dreading seeing JW on Christmas Eve, yet LS and LT will both be there and I really want to see both of them! Also lots of my main circle of friends will be there too.

Sadly neither LS or LT will be at my NYE party (unless I can somehow persuade them otherwise over Christmas).

I don't know...have lots on my mind right now and the endless travel gives me lots of time to think which isn't good really....

Last night Earl chatted up the best looking women in the club in his town. Unsuccessfully. Although he thinks "the seeds were planted".....I think I might stop speaking about myself in the third person as I'm sure it can't be healthy! Even if Earl is my drunken alter-ego.

Anyway I learned her name, date of birth (don't ask!) and country of origin. Latvia in case you're curious. And that was about all. I made her laugh a lot at least and definitely wasn't the usual kind of drunken retard she usually gets chatting her up. And she was exquisitely beautiful it must be said. My wingman (RM) was amazed that I was even talking to her! And somewhat jealous too it must be said!

Earlier in the evening I and RM completely stole the show at an open mic night which was obviously very good fun. Two Beatles songs + two originals = a 15 minute blast! Also stole some posters with my name on advertising the gig I'm doing on Boxing day!

In other news I sent a message via facebook to VM asking her out for a drink. Have had no response yet! Yesterday I learned of the female concept of a "thinking day" - apparently you have to allow a day(!) for a female to decide how to respond to an invite for a date! This concept is completely lost on my male mind....what do I know???

Finally-today is LS's birthday. My phone told me at midnight (though I know not why!). Sent her a generic message and got a generic thank you back.

Hmm been a busy little week. Had out staff Christmas party on Monday night which was pretty good fun; although sadly I ended up sat next to ST (my ex!) and I failed to speak for most of the evening. Still a good time was had by everyone else at least!

Last night I decided to take matters into my own hands (in my own fairly useless way) and I added VM as a friend on facebook. This might seem insignificant to you but for me it was a big step. First of all, she accepted! That has actually made me annoyingly cheerful all day today. We had been discussing my adding of her for a couple of weeks in the office and how I should do it. Then today when I told them the reaction was "I can't believe you added her!" There's no winning!

So anyway, so far so good. I know she goes back to Portugal for Christmas but I know not when....actually maybe I should elaborate for the strangers reading and for myself in a few years...VM rents a house from my company. And she is absolutely stunning. In a "make me forget how to string normal sentences together" kinda way. In fact, whilst having a brief conversation with her one day I may have inferred that her ideal job would be a bond Villian! Not my finest hour I admit!

Still she is all smiley and cheerful and amazing! I genuinely am nervous before I see her and on a high after I've seen her-even though 90% our conversations are brief and official.

So the fact she added me was a very pleasant surprise. First thing I checked was obviously her status....and to my amazement she is single So now I have to figure out what to do next! I'm running out of free days before Christmas now in all honesty. Tricky.....

Had another night out in M last night. Another punch party, this time with Peach concentrate mixed in which was a genius idea even if I do say so myself. JH was drunker than any person I have ever seen and probably has concussion today; whilst we were guiding him upstairs he kept licking my face and groping me! ST also failed to make it past midnight and bailed out-then was repeatedly sick this morning.

Meanwhile RK was sick when he went to bed. VD survived without any sickness, as did MA. And I feel fine. But I really don't think I drunk as much punch as anyone else-certainly I can remember most of the night pretty clearly whereas they all have big gaps. Having said that I did wake up wearing a santa hat I have no recollection of obtaining.

I passed as a 21 year old student (using JH's card) to get into a nightclub for free! Very flattering!

Also had another telephone related oddity. For some reason MA ended up with RK's phone-just before she vanished for the night she gave me the phone which I pocketed. Then I awoke to RK ringing it this morning and he was so pleased and surprised that I had it! As was I to be honest! It scared the crap out of my at first!

Had an absolutely manic week all week at work for some reason. Even with the snow day!

So it was good to kick back and relax on friday night. RM came over again and we recorded a proper demo of 'Love Is My Middle name' which turns out quite well-although we didn't get any drums this time!

Then we went to the club again; found out that AB (the single craziest person I know) also thought CM was a complete lunatic. Not sure if that's reassuring or not!

Anyway, my good deed of the night was when I found a phone that had fallen out of someone pocket. I knew what the owner looked like but couldn't find her so I gave the phone behind the entrance. Then I found the girl and told her and she was very pleased! If I had a list....

Snow Day! Today it is physically impossible for me to get to work; trains not running and the main road betwixt work and home is blocked. So I'm home, slightly bored but just about to make a "final" setlist for Boxing Day. Oh, and I've invited a million people from Facebook too!

We have a really busy day tomorrow at work so I'm actually hoping it'll be back to normal! I've come a long way in three years.....

...cos my feet haven't touched the ground at work today. Or yesterday for that matter. I need a vacation!

Woke up to snow this morning which was a pleasant(ish) surprise. Apart from the rigmarole of having to defrost the car anyway.

I'm still trying to work out what songs to play on Boxing Day. I have a "shortlist" of about 30 songs I've written over the years (which would make an ace CD to be completely immodest) plus 5 or 6 songs I'd like to cover. I'm on for 45 minutes which gives me roughly 10 songs, give or take. Hmmm....